doushite..???

Doushite kimi wo suki ni natte shimattan darou?
Donna ni toki ga nagaretemo kimi wa zutto
Koko ni iru to, omotteta no ni
Demo kimi ga eranda no wa chigau michi

Doushite kimi ni nani mo tsutaerarenakattan darou?
Mainichi maiban tsunotteku omoi
Afuredasu kotoba, wakatteta no ni (mou todokanai)

Hajimete deatta, sono hi kara
Kimi wo shitteita ki ga shitan da
Amari ni shizen ni tokende shimatta futari

Doko e iku no ni mo issho de
Kimi ga iru koto ga touzen de
Bokura wa futari otona ni natte kita
Demo kimi ga eranda no wa chigau michiDoushite kimi wo suki ni natte shimattan darou?
Donna ni toki ga nagaretemo kimi wa zutto
Koko ni iru to, omotteta no ni (mou kanawanai)

Tokubetsu na imi wo motsu kyou wo
Shiawase kao de tatsu kyou wo
Kirei na sugata de kami sama ni chikatteru, kimi wo

Boku ja nai hito no tonari de
Shukufuku sareteru sugata wo
Boku wa dou yatte miokureba ii no darou?

Mou doushite kimi wo suki ni natte shimattan darou?
Ano koro mo, bokura no koto, mou moderenai (kangaeta) modorenai (kangaeta)

Doushite kimi no te wo tsukami ubaenakattan darou?
Donna ni toki ga nagaretemo kimi wa zutto
Boku no yoko ni, iru hazu datta (sono mama nii)

Sore demo kimi ga boku no soba nara to itte mo
Eien ni kimi ga shiawase de iru koto
Tada negatteru
Tatoe sore ga donna ni sabishikutemo (setsunakutemo)

candle in the wind..

have lost ..

really need to go..

like candle in the wind..

the light of candle not stand..

it's let me down..

u never know...

i'm going  i'm going..

never ever love again..

not wait 4 yesterday ..

never ever see the past..

the darkness not being scared anymore..

coz when i believe of myself...

i'll be struggling hard to gain back what i want..

i don't care of restless or hardship in life..

only me can light again the candle..

only me can choose the path...

even the path may be wrong...

but i will settle down the issues...

not drive myself insane...

and you just need to wait & see..

it's not take any longer...

b'coz i can let u go..

pushing away...

although i'm still hurt...

i hope the pain ..

just like candle in the wind...

rescue..~~

i can't get up there..

no one coming to the rescue...

save me save me..

even i'm crying or drowning..

but no one coming to the rescue..

i'm just dying alone ...

let the sea take me away..

never against the wave...

fallin' deep into the bottom ..

till i just close my eyes ..

can't see the blue sky..

bringing me down..

coz it is over..

and the forgiveness seems wrong..

so better me off alone..

no rescue or save me..

the journey also the end 4 me..

life game is over ~~

thank you God...but..??.

ya ALLAH i'm thankful 4 YOU..

HEAR MY PRAY N BLESS ME..

syukur n alhamdulilah 4 given me the chance..

my sacrifice has been paid..

but i'm apology if i'm being greedy..

n not appreciate for what i have..

i know everything belong to u...

i can lost it when u say so..

but believe me i never betray u...

thank you 4 giving me back the smile even just a moment..

but right now , at this time i just feel to much sad..

speechless to say it coz it hurts me to much...

only the tears could be fallin down...

shall i just leave ...

the misery too pain..

am i wrong 4 chasing my dreams..

i know that i'm just a shadow ...

when the  night come i'm gone..

everyday i never forget to pray 4 them ...

i'm not perfect but please understood me..

mercy even i'm nothing..

let me see the blue sky n grab the star..

give me a little time to prove it...

so i'm not falling slowly  as a sinking boat..

make it to the end..

before go..

used the way to be..

never try to push it away..

even realize it was too late..

i'm sorry it could be like this..

it seems over..

make it to  the end..

standing in the middle of broken heart..

see the hurting part..

and make it to the end..

seorang insan...: low blood pressure...

seorang insan...: low blood pressure...: "lately never feel better.. everything not well.. mind ,body n soul... feel cold n dizzy.. around me spinning.. does it happen because .. too..."

low blood pressure...

lately never feel better..

everything not well..

mind ,body n soul...

feel cold n dizzy..

around me spinning..

does it happen because ..

too much that  drive through..

all the thorn n difficulty alone..

tired of all those thing..

not strong anymore to face it ..

the life just so hard for me..

 becoming weak n weaker all the day..

this happen 4 me not only right now but long time ago..

coz  thought that only migrain it just going worst..

untill faint n then has discovered that  had it..

just need to be careful more next time..

if too much streesful in my life it could be disaster..

trying to stop thinking n begin with breathing fresh air..

but can't coz a lot of thing make me wories day by day..

what should  i do...

coz don't have anybody by my side..

rightnow only me can force of my life..

hope everything going well soon...

my life,my destiny n my fate...