someone tell my heart...

i try to tell my self,

it's really over...

that is just to late  ,

for me go back there...

need to walk away  ,

need to keep my pride ,

on with my life...

gettin sick n tired of this situation...

somethin deep inside just  ,

can't seem to face it....

i'm not goin back but  ,

somehow i can't say goodbye....

someone needs to tell my heart  ,

get it to believe that is over...

tried n tried thousand times... 

i'm still here ,

i can try to walk away but ,

i only seem to end up nowhere...

i made up my mind  ,

that's the easy part...

someone need to tell my heart ,

i deserve better n it kills me..

that i'm holdin on...

i need to be strong ,

let u go.....

someone please tell my heart...

if i can't convince my self  ,

what i'm gonna do...???

what i;m gonna do...???

someone please tell my heart....

i pray..

every day,minutes and second..

i never  forget U..

AS long as i 'm alive..

only to u i'm pray ..

hoping that u can give me peaceful..

in my mind and heart...

even u give me hard time..

only u  who can vanish it..

i'm just  too weak ..

everytime i close my eyes..

hoping for better days..

    and pray...

i pray not only for brokenhearted..

          but..

for start new life...

sometimes i just can't sleep..

don't know where to start..

tell me how can i make a change..??

please give me a strength...

only u i give everything..

make me see the sunshine no more darkness all night..

          i close my eyes...

and i pray ..

  for better days...

            i pray.....

i'm sorry.. please forgive me..!!!

Please forgive me..

i'm begging you..

i'm really sorry..

never meant to hurt both of u..

but please understand me...

i'm also never ask to be like this..

i'm already did what i need to be done..

since i came here never playin' around..

just to reachin' my dreams..

is it wrong if i have my own way..

not following what u want from me..

i'm just an ordinary daughter who thirst ur love ..

who have  own dreams and ambition..

but u never seen me in different way..

not better than others..

even i've already tried my best..

but never satisfied u..

i'm just like a shadow existed in front of u ..

nobody notice and feel the existence..

just by her own..

tryin' hard to proof that can be the best and somebody..

but still cannot be touch and feel bcoz  i'm only the shadow..

even u'r not supportive but make me feel deep down n isolated..

everytime i'm fallin'  down..

i'm still prayin' for ur goodness ..

until i'm dyin'  with the silence heart..

     but...

please forgive me ..

       and ..

not leave me alone..

please hold my hand..

coz i really need both of u in my life..

i'm never askin' for more..

even there is no fair treat i just can accept..

even i'm cryin' by my own for the pain and hurts..

just plese don't leave me..

i have nobody anymore..

please forgive me..

give me a time to heal the pain..

give me one more chance to stand up once again..

i'm begging u..

please understand me...

i'm also have a feelin' but just keep inside ..

so nobody know my sufferin just kill me slowly..

i'm so sorry ...

for not being what u want  but what i want to be..

fallin stars..

cryin' n cryin'...

my tears just can't stop fallin'..

it does not only me but the people surrounding me too..

who feel the same way and the same faith..

who always together with me..

deep inside our heart just too hurt..

till sometime we just lose our hope..

even we never expected this gonna be happen..

after gone through harder path since here...

and no light of shining stars..

where we fall in the darkness of cosmic...

but the stars still waiting for us even it is far away..

just  try again and again..

every time we fall ,alone and helpless...

i know it is not easy to come back once again..

because it same with drowning without rescuer..

only us can save our self ...

be strong and not surrender until we reachin' the shining stars..

we just need to start over  again..

let it go even it is hard to forget and lookin' back...

as long as the chance still there we just move on tryin' our best..

Bless the broken road..

i set out on a narrow way 

since many years ago

that I've need go through

hoping that i would reach in the final destination

even the road is long and broken

but i got lost a time or two

wipe my brow and kept

pushin' through

i couldn't see how

every sign pointed to you

that every long last dream

led me to where you are

others who broke my heart

they were like northern stars

pointing me on my way

into your loving arms

this much i know is true

that God bless the broken road

that led me straight to you

i think about the years i spent

just passin' through

it's all part of grander plan

that's comin' through.....

tired of being the one..

i'm tired of being the one...

the one that u don't see...

the one that just might be..

the one who give u what u need..

i'm tired of being the one..

the one that u don't know..

the one that u even turn around to say hello..

but i ain't  gonna be here forever..

if u never open your eyes...

i'm tired of being the one..

who only look into you..

lost n hope..

is it still hope for me

to continue dreaming

or just let it go

i'm just like an insect in the forest

trying hard to find a way

but it seems too blur

until there is no hope of life

and slowly lost in the middle of forest

and it feels like drowning deep inside in the ocean

where is no more air to breath

i just lost in there without nobody knows

but inside my heart i'm just want to hold it tight

and really dont wanna it walk away from me..

somebody anyone help it is emergency..

to start it over again...

my heart so broken and my words so frozen..

what i have to do when i lost ..?

is it hope still waiting for me...?

in the dark..

what i had to do with all again.?

how could  you leave me in the dark?

alone and cold in the dark..

i'm no one that can do better...

just give me another chance..

please do not leave me there ..

i'm too scared and please take me out there..

tell me how i supposed  to make lights go on again..

or just leave me there ..

cold and alone in the dark..

where there is no more lights...

like a broken wings which no hopes of  fly..

why it's never end...

why all this happen to me

i just can't take it anymore

it just like never ending story to me

why it's so hard to me

why it's never end

is it because i 'm who are not qualified for it

or belong to it..

i know i'm just nothing n priceless

but i'm also have  my dream

is it too impossible for me to hold it

why it should be me

why  my life need too suffer

i'm just an ordinary girl who also have dream like others

i just too afraid to fall many times n can't stand up again by my own

why my suffering never  end either in my heart n life..

why it's never end..

it 's really too hard i need someone by my side ...

just give me a strength...

please don't walk away...

i can't believe that u ending relationship with me

after all those spending time together

       baby can't u see?

everytime we fight i put my pride aside

i always let u win

just to end those arguments

never want to hurt u

        then

i don't want to hurt u now

never want to tell u lies

i just wanna to treat u right

every day and every night 

just wanna stay by ur side

          trust me 

and u will see

i  will never break it 

coz ur heart is my heart

i want u to be here next to me

coz i love u baby can't u see?

never wanna change our destiny

 i try my best gave u

everything u want n more

baby open up ur eyes

can't u see i 'm hurt inside

u the only one for me that

   i want by my side

i dont know what to do

    and

what to say

what can i do 

to make u stay

just trust me n u will see

don't walk away....

i need u to stay.....