kehidupan baru..

semenjak chambering kehidupan segalanya berubah..

berubah utuk dunia baru dan menerima kehidupan baru..

saya seronok berada di tempat chambering dan bersyukur

kerana persekitaran dan tempat kerja yg best..

walaupun kerja yg tak putus balik sampai lewat malam 

makin ditarah file makin meniggi kerjanya..

itulah bukit yg tak pnah rata...

setiap hari rutin saya awal 5 pg dah bersiap utk ke tempat kerja..

pastu stay back sampai ke malam tapi ok sebab tak stress kerja..

bila balik kerja ja terus jd cicak man..ngee

tambahan plak sekarang dah sewa umah seniri lagi la kena pandai uruskan semua seniri..

takpa sebab sekarang saya sedang blajar berdikari..

tak kisah umah bujang yg takdak apa2 n untuk bermula dari zero..

sebab kejayaan tak dtg bergolek..

hari sabtu n ahad plak cari rezeki lebih..

bukak kelas tusyen n kelas bahasa arab..

terpaksa la korbankan rehat..

sebab nak survive hdup n lagipun kena simpan duit utk dslp..

bagi saya tak kisah utk hdup susah dulu lagipun saya dah biasa hdup susah..

yg penting usaha kuat utk mencari yg lebih..dan tak ngaku kalah..

hdup saya skrg ngajar saya hdup lebih tabah n kuat..

kepada ibu bapa saya tlglah bg saya sokongan moral..

itu saja yg saya mahu skrg ni..

walaupun inilah rutin hdup saya tiap2 hari tiada masa utk diri seniri..

tapi saya tetap akan kuat beusaha dan harungi segala kesusahan ini..

untuk satu cita2 saya yg pasti..iaitu saya nak jd lawyer yg berjaya n ada firm seniri..

trust , believe ,& understand me..

this time i just need u..

trust me and believe me..

understand me too...

only these that i ask for..

not other things...

but why both of u always against me..

is it i'm really wrong 4 every movement or the path that i take..

why never support me..

i'm only have  both of u..

why only look to the other person rather than me..

i'm the only one as ur child no one else...

i just want u to pray 4 my safety n my successful..

thats all i need..

even ur love was given to other but not me..

i'm trying so much to be independant...

even this time is the most difficult 4 me...

i really facing it..

really hard 4 me ..

i dont know what to do anymore..

i just need to move and move on until don't know when the end..

suffering and misery just too much till indescribably..

mom n dad please trust me n believe me n understand me..

i'm really begging of u but i never forget to pray 4 u...

even how hard my life right now n routine..

(chambering + part time jobs + dslp )  = (~ _ ~)

don't push me but support me..

please do so...

hardest moment.~~

the beginning of  real life..

just started 4 e grab of star n dreams..

to be true it is not only the matters of time..

but how u will survive n face all the challenges..

only u nobody else...

either u gonna to drown or swim against it..

everything depends on u...

work hard doesn't enough but patience n pray 2gether..

make u more strong heart n tough character...

the starting of life seems hardest right now..

but hopes this moment does not drag long time..

willing to sacrifice n be in the difficult time of life..

i believe of myself that i can face it n not give up..

passion,determination n strong....

make u days by days more immune of the real life in this world..

even u feel so lonely in this world ...

never forget everything is in the hand of God...

stage by stage i go through the challenges...

at the end there are hope as long believe of God,sincerity, n never regret of what i'm choose..

hardest moment can be wipe away ...n the shining star will waiting 4 u..

doushite..???

Doushite kimi wo suki ni natte shimattan darou?
Donna ni toki ga nagaretemo kimi wa zutto
Koko ni iru to, omotteta no ni
Demo kimi ga eranda no wa chigau michi

Doushite kimi ni nani mo tsutaerarenakattan darou?
Mainichi maiban tsunotteku omoi
Afuredasu kotoba, wakatteta no ni (mou todokanai)

Hajimete deatta, sono hi kara
Kimi wo shitteita ki ga shitan da
Amari ni shizen ni tokende shimatta futari

Doko e iku no ni mo issho de
Kimi ga iru koto ga touzen de
Bokura wa futari otona ni natte kita
Demo kimi ga eranda no wa chigau michiDoushite kimi wo suki ni natte shimattan darou?
Donna ni toki ga nagaretemo kimi wa zutto
Koko ni iru to, omotteta no ni (mou kanawanai)

Tokubetsu na imi wo motsu kyou wo
Shiawase kao de tatsu kyou wo
Kirei na sugata de kami sama ni chikatteru, kimi wo

Boku ja nai hito no tonari de
Shukufuku sareteru sugata wo
Boku wa dou yatte miokureba ii no darou?

Mou doushite kimi wo suki ni natte shimattan darou?
Ano koro mo, bokura no koto, mou moderenai (kangaeta) modorenai (kangaeta)

Doushite kimi no te wo tsukami ubaenakattan darou?
Donna ni toki ga nagaretemo kimi wa zutto
Boku no yoko ni, iru hazu datta (sono mama nii)

Sore demo kimi ga boku no soba nara to itte mo
Eien ni kimi ga shiawase de iru koto
Tada negatteru
Tatoe sore ga donna ni sabishikutemo (setsunakutemo)

candle in the wind..

have lost ..

really need to go..

like candle in the wind..

the light of candle not stand..

it's let me down..

u never know...

i'm going  i'm going..

never ever love again..

not wait 4 yesterday ..

never ever see the past..

the darkness not being scared anymore..

coz when i believe of myself...

i'll be struggling hard to gain back what i want..

i don't care of restless or hardship in life..

only me can light again the candle..

only me can choose the path...

even the path may be wrong...

but i will settle down the issues...

not drive myself insane...

and you just need to wait & see..

it's not take any longer...

b'coz i can let u go..

pushing away...

although i'm still hurt...

i hope the pain ..

just like candle in the wind...

rescue..~~

i can't get up there..

no one coming to the rescue...

save me save me..

even i'm crying or drowning..

but no one coming to the rescue..

i'm just dying alone ...

let the sea take me away..

never against the wave...

fallin' deep into the bottom ..

till i just close my eyes ..

can't see the blue sky..

bringing me down..

coz it is over..

and the forgiveness seems wrong..

so better me off alone..

no rescue or save me..

the journey also the end 4 me..

life game is over ~~

thank you God...but..??.

ya ALLAH i'm thankful 4 YOU..

HEAR MY PRAY N BLESS ME..

syukur n alhamdulilah 4 given me the chance..

my sacrifice has been paid..

but i'm apology if i'm being greedy..

n not appreciate for what i have..

i know everything belong to u...

i can lost it when u say so..

but believe me i never betray u...

thank you 4 giving me back the smile even just a moment..

but right now , at this time i just feel to much sad..

speechless to say it coz it hurts me to much...

only the tears could be fallin down...

shall i just leave ...

the misery too pain..

am i wrong 4 chasing my dreams..

i know that i'm just a shadow ...

when the  night come i'm gone..

everyday i never forget to pray 4 them ...

i'm not perfect but please understood me..

mercy even i'm nothing..

let me see the blue sky n grab the star..

give me a little time to prove it...

so i'm not falling slowly  as a sinking boat..