Tuesday, December 28, 2010

someone tell my heart...

i try to tell my self,
it's really over...
that is just to late  ,
for me go back there...
need to walk away  ,
need to keep my pride ,
on with my life...
gettin sick n tired of this situation...
somethin deep inside just  ,
can't seem to face it....
i'm not goin back but  ,
somehow i can't say goodbye....
someone needs to tell my heart  ,
get it to believe that is over...
tried n tried thousand times... 
i'm still here ,
i can try to walk away but ,
i only seem to end up nowhere...
i made up my mind  ,
that's the easy part...
someone need to tell my heart ,
i deserve better n it kills me..
that i'm holdin on...
i need to be strong ,
let u go.....
someone please tell my heart...
if i can't convince my self  ,
what i'm gonna do...???
what i;m gonna do...???
someone please tell my heart....

Thursday, December 23, 2010

i pray..

every day,minutes and second..
i never  forget U..
AS long as i 'm alive..
only to u i'm pray ..
hoping that u can give me peaceful..
in my mind and heart...
even u give me hard time..
only u  who can vanish it..
i'm just  too weak ..
everytime i close my eyes..
hoping for better days..
    and pray...
i pray not only for brokenhearted..
          but..
for start new life...
sometimes i just can't sleep..
don't know where to start..
tell me how can i make a change..??
please give me a strength...
only u i give everything..
make me see the sunshine no more darkness all night..
          i close my eyes...
and i pray ..
  for better days...
            i pray.....

Tuesday, December 21, 2010

i'm sorry.. please forgive me..!!!

Please forgive me..
i'm begging you..
i'm really sorry..
never meant to hurt both of u..
but please understand me...
i'm also never ask to be like this..
i'm already did what i need to be done..
since i came here never playin' around..
just to reachin' my dreams..
is it wrong if i have my own way..
not following what u want from me..
i'm just an ordinary daughter who thirst ur love ..
who have  own dreams and ambition..
but u never seen me in different way..
not better than others..
even i've already tried my best..
but never satisfied u..
i'm just like a shadow existed in front of u ..
nobody notice and feel the existence..
just by her own..
tryin' hard to proof that can be the best and somebody..
but still cannot be touch and feel bcoz  i'm only the shadow..
even u'r not supportive but make me feel deep down n isolated..
everytime i'm fallin'  down..
i'm still prayin' for ur goodness ..
until i'm dyin'  with the silence heart..
     but...
please forgive me ..
       and ..
not leave me alone..
please hold my hand..
coz i really need both of u in my life..
i'm never askin' for more..
even there is no fair treat i just can accept..
even i'm cryin' by my own for the pain and hurts..
just plese don't leave me..
i have nobody anymore..
please forgive me..
give me a time to heal the pain..
give me one more chance to stand up once again..
i'm begging u..
please understand me...
i'm also have a feelin' but just keep inside ..
so nobody know my sufferin just kill me slowly..
i'm so sorry ...
for not being what u want  but what i want to be..

Thursday, December 16, 2010

fallin stars..

cryin' n cryin'...
my tears just can't stop fallin'..
it does not only me but the people surrounding me too..
who feel the same way and the same faith..
who always together with me..
deep inside our heart just too hurt..
till sometime we just lose our hope..
even we never expected this gonna be happen..
after gone through harder path since here...
and no light of shining stars..
where we fall in the darkness of cosmic...
but the stars still waiting for us even it is far away..
just  try again and again..
every time we fall ,alone and helpless...
i know it is not easy to come back once again..
because it same with drowning without rescuer..
only us can save our self ...
be strong and not surrender until we reachin' the shining stars..
we just need to start over  again..
let it go even it is hard to forget and lookin' back...
as long as the chance still there we just move on tryin' our best..

Monday, December 13, 2010

Bless the broken road..

i set out on a narrow way 
since many years ago
that I've need go through
hoping that i would reach in the final destination
even the road is long and broken
but i got lost a time or two
wipe my brow and kept
pushin' through
i couldn't see how
every sign pointed to you
that every long last dream
led me to where you are
others who broke my heart
they were like northern stars
pointing me on my way
into your loving arms
this much i know is true
that God bless the broken road
that led me straight to you
i think about the years i spent
just passin' through
it's all part of grander plan
that's comin' through.....


Thursday, December 9, 2010

tired of being the one..

i'm tired of being the one...
the one that u don't see...
the one that just might be..
the one who give u what u need..
i'm tired of being the one..
the one that u don't know..
the one that u even turn around to say hello..
but i ain't  gonna be here forever..
if u never open your eyes...
i'm tired of being the one..
who only look into you..

Wednesday, December 8, 2010

lost n hope..

is it still hope for me
to continue dreaming
or just let it go
i'm just like an insect in the forest
trying hard to find a way
but it seems too blur
until there is no hope of life
and slowly lost in the middle of forest
and it feels like drowning deep inside in the ocean
where is no more air to breath
i just lost in there without nobody knows
but inside my heart i'm just want to hold it tight
and really dont wanna it walk away from me..
somebody anyone help it is emergency..
to start it over again...
my heart so broken and my words so frozen..
what i have to do when i lost ..?
is it hope still waiting for me...?




Tuesday, December 7, 2010

in the dark..

what i had to do with all again.?
how could  you leave me in the dark?
alone and cold in the dark..
i'm no one that can do better...
just give me another chance..
please do not leave me there ..
i'm too scared and please take me out there..
tell me how i supposed  to make lights go on again..
or just leave me there ..
cold and alone in the dark..
where there is no more lights...
like a broken wings which no hopes of  fly..

Monday, December 6, 2010

why it's never end...

why all this happen to me
i just can't take it anymore
it just like never ending story to me
why it's so hard to me
why it's never end
is it because i 'm who are not qualified for it
or belong to it..
i know i'm just nothing n priceless
but i'm also have  my dream
is it too impossible for me to hold it
why it should be me
why  my life need too suffer
i'm just an ordinary girl who also have dream like others
i just too afraid to fall many times n can't stand up again by my own
why my suffering never  end either in my heart n life..
why it's never end..
it 's really too hard i need someone by my side ...
just give me a strength...

Friday, December 3, 2010

please don't walk away...

i can't believe that u ending relationship with me
after all those spending time together
       baby can't u see?
everytime we fight i put my pride aside
i always let u win
just to end those arguments
never want to hurt u
        then
i don't want to hurt u now
never want to tell u lies
i just wanna to treat u right
every day and every night 
just wanna stay by ur side
          trust me 
and u will see
i  will never break it 
coz ur heart is my heart
i want u to be here next to me
coz i love u baby can't u see?
never wanna change our destiny
 i try my best gave u
everything u want n more
baby open up ur eyes
can't u see i 'm hurt inside
u the only one for me that
   i want by my side
i dont know what to do
    and
what to say
what can i do 
to make u stay
just trust me n u will see
don't walk away....
i need u to stay.....